Sleepwalkers

Life seen in a three dimensional light blinds those who walk the path of spirituality, for the way to true knowledge is comprised of infinite dimensions. I know of the dimension of one, the Inner Dimension within Oneself that so many seek to deny. Also, the Dimension of All that is ignored, so people can deny the One.

Of course there is the ordinary mundane in which most would humans dwell, unable to see anything which their physical senses convey to them. A tree is a tree (or is it?). You see the bark, the roots, leaves, stems; you feel its texture, you smell its life, you hear it rustling in the wind. If you want, you can even taste it.

But that is where it stops for most people. Can you sense that it is a part of you? Can you give it the same love you would give yourself or others? Do you know that if you cut it down, you are cutting a piece of yourself as well?

The same goes for everything in this Universe, I have found, and sometimes I'm guilty of forgetting that and doing what I was raised by society to do. This is something I work on every day of my life.

Here in this city, this conglomeration of Spiritual Sleepwalkers, I feel smothered. My spirit is dampened or maybe masked so that I can relate on a day to day basis. Sometimes I feel I come from another plane of existence. Where All is known and revered. A place where physical being is not worshipped and gods are not made up to replace true spirituality.

As the Ancients knew, we are all made up of the same Energy, just resonating on a different level which is what gives us physical quality. If all of we humans could understand that, then I would feel like this place was my home. I often feel out of place here, and I want to go back to where I came from. But in my existence. here, I am afraid I've forgotten where that was. Like it's a long faded dream I can only catch glimpses of when I'm not looking.

On the human level, life is cruel because we make it that way, we have evolved past the fight or flight, survival of the fittest level of life; or at lease some of us have. Are we just ahead of our time, or has our time long past?

The human race as a whole, spiritually, is devolving, and I wonder what is to come. Will there be an Awakening, or is that reserved for a select few? I am awake and what I see sometimes just makes me want to fall back to sleep even though I know there is no going back, I will always know what I do and to fall back to sleep would mean certain death on a physical and spiritual level.

Sometimes I feel as if this place is killing me, other times I can cope. I want to move back to nature, away from all of the Spiritual Sleepwalkers (or at least a great majority of them). Where I can feel at one with the forces around me, and I don't always have to "watch my back" so to speak. Maybe in that setting I can work on my spirituality and not feel everyone else's pain and sense of disorientation. For even though your habitat is not you, it can and does have a great impact on your being. Not that life is carefree; and I have learned many lessons by being in negative situations. But I am tired, and need a rest from all of that shit.

I am so thankful that I've finally found someone I can share myself with and my feelings about what I know to be true. I wish I could take her away from all of this and to where I came from, which is probably in all respects where all Life and even this Universe originated.

It's funny that when I feel the most connected to the Universe (All) is when religion is the furthest thing from my mind. I am a true Spiritual Atheist, and I know why. Some of the reasons I have already written down and I'm sure I'll express more as they come to me. I belong to a religion that has no name, a religion that is not a religion at all. I belong to the All, which is not a name or title.... just the best word to fit or describe.